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I Apologize

  • Jan. 29th, 2008 at 11:14 PM
friends
I'm sorry that I'm not pretty
I'm sorry that I'm not skinny
I'm sorry I suck so much at writing
I'm sorry I can't stop from loving
I'm sorry I can't stop staring at you
I'm sorry that you make me do the thinks I do
I'm sorry that I have to leave
I'm sorry that I don't have time to grieve

I'm sorry I'm not all dolled up
I'm sorry I'm not the perfect one
I'm sorry you can't see me fro who I am
I'm sorry I can't do what she can
I'm sorry I don't love him that way
I'm sorry that I stand by every single day
I'm sorry I'm too full of pride
I'm sorry I was in just for the ride

But, I'm especially sorry that I ever fell in love with you.



HayleeHoax (11:11:16 PM): you know whats a funny expression.
HayleeHoax (11:11:24 PM): heavens to betsy.
HayleeHoax (11:11:27 PM): who the fuck
HayleeHoax (11:11:34 PM): is betsy
Aijou X Zou (11:11:55 PM): roflmao
Aijou X Zou (11:11:56 PM): who knows



I love this girl (as a sister dears). She didn't even know that I was crying, and messaged me with that random shit.


Dear World,

    Chris is in complete denial and would like a break.

    P.S. send cash

Love, Candied.

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Whoa I like totally updated

  • Dec. 23rd, 2007 at 2:01 PM
ghey
Indeed it makes me happy.


I had a dream last night that I was a chain smoker.
I would take up the offer in an instant if it wasn't for the smell.
I can't stand the smell of cigarette smoke.


I snap at Philip at any chance I get.
We had a decent conversation with a mediator (Amy I believe) about something I can't recall.
My words were swollen and I hardly directed anything to him in general, if anything at all.


I yell at him if he interupts me,
He hit me again.
I screamed for Tony to save me
He did.


Tony.
I like Tony.
A lot.
He won't hurt me.
But it's too soon.


Tony loves me.
He's been in love with me.
Since the beginning of school.


But I still love Dylan.
And can't make the mistake of going too fast.
Like with Philip.



But what do any of you care? I got another part out, a good one at that. A slight filler but an interesting one, if I do say so myself. The next one will mostly a filler and some action. That's where the prewritten part ends.


I have to write another fight scene. A huge one. I don't know what's going to come after that. A few sappy hospital scenes I suppose, but my luck runs out after that.


Anyway, enjoy part three of Through Heavens and Hells

bang bang. and you're dead

  • Oct. 23rd, 2007 at 9:38 PM
happy
TharenDul (9:28:06 PM): do u know that i have a gf?
TharenDul (9:28:58 PM): ?
Aijou X Zou (9:26:09 PM): news to me.
TharenDul (9:29:23 PM): oh, well that doesnt surprise me
TharenDul (9:29:28 PM): one: its new
TharenDul (9:29:34 PM): two: not a lot of people know
TharenDul (9:29:41 PM): three: its a distance relationship
Aijou X Zou (9:26:46 PM): oh
Aijou X Zou (9:26:46 PM): ok
TharenDul (9:30:00 PM): ill be honest
TharenDul (9:30:09 PM): if it wasnt for that, i would want 2 go out with u
Aijou X Zou (9:27:16 PM): ok
TharenDul (9:30:27 PM): is that it? lol
Aijou X Zou (9:27:35 PM): yea
TharenDul (9:30:51 PM): r u mad now?
Aijou X Zou (9:27:51 PM): no
TharenDul (9:30:58 PM): sad?
Aijou X Zou (9:27:58 PM): no
TharenDul (9:31:13 PM): just ok, yea and no is all that u r saying?
Aijou X Zou (9:28:24 PM): I'm....apathetic
Aijou X Zou (9:28:30 PM): after a few times you get used to it

Why, dear readers, am I the magnet for backstabbing relationships?
Why am I always the second choice...

Dylan, as none of you know, abused me.
He never loved me.
I was a 'booty call'
A rebound girl.


I don't want to be that with anyone ever again.
I don't want my heart to go into another blender

I will try so hard to update this weekend, oh I will, I will.

But who could write under the stress of this?
Who could coax a song of words with this on their chest?!

A god.

Where have all the weekends gone?

  • Oct. 21st, 2007 at 8:22 PM
Stalker
The time slips through my fingers like liquid, oozing out onto the floor where it evaporates into the past.

I haven't updated my Sasuke story in forever,

My reasoning?

I planned on lying and saying that my computer was on the fritz, but why bother?

two weeks ago- fair with philip<3 (and his/my friends but who cares about them) ohhh he needs to ask me out before I kick him in the shin D:<

last week- fair (again) only this time without philip because he was "sick" -.- so I went with his brother and my friends :D

So if time turns to ice so I can hold it and put it in my glass of quizilla, then I'll get another part out for Through Heavens and Hells.

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